I have figured being quiet hurts than speaking out ..God I'm writing this with soo much rage, pain and anger. Nobody understands how it feels to be me. My life ha changed from being that vibrant happy soul,to that depressed paranoid young single mom whose been misunderstood by the society.
The question is, before you have judged me did you take time to understand me? . I blame myself for being with a celebrity, never knew I would be a laughing stock for having a child out of wedlock. Can you believe all the months I carried my baby mudumbu, hapana kana rubatsiro rwandakawana from someone who got me pregnant. I could not feed well apa I have a child mudumbu.
I thought of how my life is and how it will end. 1 thing I know and now understand is that iam a strong woman. A lot of ladies may think I'm bitter because he got married or he found love No!! I'm bitter because I'm getting the stigma of being impregnated by someone who lied and made me a laughing stock. I'm bitter because noone sees it, I'm bitter because I'm going through postpartum depression but nobody is doing anything about it. How can my babys family not love him?
How can they not check up on their muzukuru? Why hate thier blood? It hurts me every single day. Sometimes it's never about money Hence I will work hard and see my baby grow to be that man. I hope his father sees this and tells the truth to everyone. I will let God be my judge and no one should. My fellow women bashing me for getting pregnant is a shame! But I Serve a Living God. He will not forsake me.
